Note to Self

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all ways acknowledge Him, and he shall direct your paths. Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and depart from evil. It will be health to your flesh and strength to your bones…

…Let [the wisdom and understanding of the Lord] not depart from your eyes—keep sound wisdom and discretion; so they will be life to your soul and grace to your neck. Then, you will walk safely in your way, and your foot will not stumble. When you lie down, you will not be afraid; yes, you will lie down and your sleep will be sweet.

Proverbs 3:5-8; 21-24

Over the past couple of months, I have had a lot of trouble sleeping, and have been generally unhappy. And, I have been foolishly wondering why. For much too long, I have been surrounding myself with the wrong people. I have been forming friendships, trusts and alliances with people who did not have the same spiritual goals that I have. What is insane about this arduous process is that when I meet these people, I know that I should avoid them: I am granted that discernment by God, and in my own attempt to be kind, tolerant and open-minded by secular standards, I ignore this discernment. This is a dangerous thing, and a practice I now seek to rid myself of.

For if, after they have escaped the pollutions of the world through the knowledge of the Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, they are again entangled in them and overcome, the latter end is worse for them than the beginning. For it would have been better for them not to have known the way of righteousness, than having known it, to turn from the holy commandment delivered to them. But it has happened to them according to the true proverb: “A dog returns to his own vomit,” and “a sow, having washed, to her wallowing in the mire.”

2 Peter 2:19-22

I am writing this note to remind myself to trust the spirit of discernment that God has given me, and to ask people I trust (for some reason or the other) to help me do that. I am coming to realize that it is not being judgmental to avoid people whose actions, words and especially SPIRIT are not in accordance with what God wants for my own spirit. This is completely biblical.

These six things the Lord hates; yes, seven are an abomination to Him:

-A proud look

-A lying tongue

-Hands that shed innocent blood

-A heart that devises wicked plans

-Feet that are swift in running to evil

-A false witness who speaks lies

And

-One who sows discord among brethren.

Proverbs 6:16-19

If God himself hates these things, then I think that I (a far lesser being) would be wise to avoid them and the people who perpetuate them. Evil spirits are pervasive, and one benefits NOTHING from associating with them. I have learned this dear lesson time and time again.

…By whom a person is overcome, by him also he is brought into bondage. Do not be unequally yoked together with unbelievers. For what fellowship has righteousness and lawlessness? And what communion has light with darkness? And what accord has Christ with Belial? Or what part has a believer with an unbeliever? And what agreement has the temple of God with idols? For YOU are the temple of the living God…

2 Corinthians 6:14-16

Anyway, this is going to be my attitude going into the month of August, and my goal is to retain it henceforth, for my own benefit. When I take a critical look at my decision-making over the past five years, it is very troubling how far backward I have gone in my spiritual journey.

Please remind me of these things if you notice me straying from or ignoring them—or at least remind me to go to church every once in a while.

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