Rules for the Future

After inspiration from today's post from Very Smart Brothas, I have composed a list of rules I wish I had told my younger self, and which my future self should keep in mind.

1. You have incredible intuition. Do not doubt it or your own integrity for feeling inclined to follow it.
2. Stop making excuses for men. Period. Cut them off as soon as they start cutting up.
3. Stop giving so much of yourself to people who can't say they love you.
4. Someone out there values you for who you are. Men who can't understand you cannot truly value or love you.
5. Wear condoms always. It isn't about trust. It is about self-protection. Nothing is infallible.
6. Live your life for you and your daughter. Nobody will look out for the two of you the way you will.
7. You are wary of Church Folk for a reason. Nobody is perfect, and people who pretend to be are particularly off-kilter. Remember the folks who have been best to you. How many of them seemed perfect?
8. Until you walk down the aisle, men don't deserve unconditional love! Save it for your girlfriends.
9. You don't need to go to him. If he wants you, he will come to you.
10. Never play games with the one you love. Always be honest, or you will regret it.

Self-Improvement

I started my long-procrastinated self improvement as of this week. I finally went to the dermatologist, and she prescribed me Retin A Micro at .1%, a 4% hydroquinon cream and BenzaClin (a 5% benzoyl peroxide gel with an added topical antibiotic). Three days later I am already peeling. My forehead broke out a little, also. I am looking forward to the results. She also prescribed me something for my eczema, including this great moisturizer and it looks tons better already.

I also plan to start working out. It has been suggested to me to spend 30 minutes on the bike per day. I'll try to do that. I'm also going to buy batteries so I can start back on my elliptical. I'll say I'll do the 300 calorie workout every day for now. We'll see... Maybe I can do the bike in the morning and the elliptical in the evenings. I don't know how much I can trust myself to do that, but regardless, I plan on getting a physical evaluation soon so I can develop a real workout plan.

What I think I may do is do the bike and elliptical for the rest of the month and start tracking my food in hopes I can reduce my weight by about 5 - 10 pounds. At that point, I'll start weight training.

I WILL be fine as hell by December.